Christianity is often viewed as a selfish religion. One that is about gaining riches in heaven for ourselves. Using our own personal salvation as motivation to do good deeds, even sharing our faith with others can be seen as having selfish motivations.

Our motivations are viewed as selfish.

I think a lot of times, too, I act selfishly towards God, as if I deserve to have things or I deserve to always be happy. Sometimes it's as if everything in the world revolves around me. My faith becomes me, me, me, and not HIM, HIM, HIM. But I don't deserve any of this. I don't deserve God's grace, God's mercy.

I act selfishly towards God.

But fortunately, we have a God of love and never ending grace, a God who loves us so much that He sent His Son to die on the cross so that my sins would be forgiven. When I think about that, and then I think about how I sometimes view God, I get mad.

You see for some people, sure Christianity is selfish. They do good deeds in order to gain God's approval and go up to heaven. That's not how I want to live though.

I want my motivation to be LOVE. I have a God who gave up His Son for me, I have a God who has put so many blessings in to my life, a God who wants me to advance His Kingdom and spread His love.

I want love to ooze out of my every pore, love for Him, love for others.

I want unconditional, no-strings-attached love to saturate everything I do.

And not a selfish love. Love because it is the least I can do in return for the infinite love I have been given. Love because an unworthy, broken, far-from-perfect, good-for-nothing sinner like me was shown a beautiful, saving, and redeeming love that can never be replicated.

I don't want it to be me, me, me. I want it to be HIM, HIM, HIM.